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|Evolution: 09/08/2004 - 1:21 PM |
I was to manipulate using guilt and love both of which I have in spades. Those weapons within me could talk me out of my instincts. He knew what buttons to push he knew that with a simple phone call I'd come running. He asked for nothing because I offered always. Day or night. Dedicated. Loyal. My self-worth tied solely to what I could do for him. And for nothing. So poorly treated for so long. And since, I've wondered why I so willingly played along. He wasn't the first to capture my heart. He wasn't the lover that gave as much as he received. He wasn't the person whom I trusted above all. But it was always him until it just wasn't until the spell broke suddenly leaving me dazed and befuddled in its wake. I suppose I'll never understand the whys and hows of his actions and mine. I came out the other side of a long, painful haze a different person and this one will never be merely a convenience again. But I'm still shedding the skin. |
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